Ex Girls Next Door star Kendra Wilkinson opened up in a recent interview about how she suffered from postpartum depression after the birth of her son with husband, football star, Hank Baskett.

Kendra revealed: “I never brushed my hair, my teeth or took a shower. I looked in the mirror one day and was totally depressed … A couple of times, I even said, ‘I just have nothing to live for.’”

Not only was it hard for Kendra to become a first time mommy, it was also hard for her to move so that Hank would be closer to the team: “It was new to me — the snow and the cold. I love running and hiking. I had a hard time being trapped inside. I’d look outside and think how much I wished I could go to the beach again.”

But Kendra also said that she has overcome her postpartum depression and she is enjoying spending time with her husband her new baby boy Hank Jr.